I have been reluctant to post; I wanted to have a fascinating story to share before I did. Oh how I wish I had a medical school acceptance to discuss at this point. A post that would allow you (my reader) to see the fruits of my labor (in a sense of course— fully aware that medical school is its own beast). Instead, however, this post is about how I have moved past my rejections. By what method I have turned my sadness into an opportunity to grow and learn (better yet how I can fix the errors in my medical school application).
When I reflect on why I started this blog, I am reminded and encouraged to post despite my apprehensions. Sharing my story means also sharing those things that may not put me in the best light, those things that show me in my most human form. Obstacles and disappointments can be understood and related by all. If I only discuss my achievements, then I would be doing a disservice to my reader. I would be "painting" a story instead of telling my story. Let’s face it a good or better yet a great story is one that is not predictable.
So here it goes: I have been rejected by a considerable majority of the medical schools I have applied to. I have also received a rejection from a post bacc program, one that gave me the sense I was a shoe in. Considering I was in constant communication with them, this gave me a false sense of security. That rejection had felt the worst of them all—I was at my lowest. That rejection dampened myself-esteem. However, I keep calm and carry on. This non trad is doing what she does best; brushing her shoulders off and wiping away her tears.
As the saying goes "there is no need to cry over spilt milk," after all that does not solve the problem and having to one day be a physician (where my job will be problem solving daily) I need to learn how to roll with the punches and solve the problems that life presents. So with self-reflection I decided to fix what I could about my application that being, my MCAT score. So this time I am keeping what worked last time and changing what didn't this time.
I have started studying with someone (unlike last time— I studied solo) I met on student doctor network (a forum devoted to all things' medical school related) that was in my area that had taken the MCAT before (like me) and was looking for a study partner. So far, she has been a blessing in more ways than one. I cannot stress this enough, being around like-minded people is essential for success. I have also started exercising, which has worked wonders for my stamina and mood (those little endorphins I tell you, pack a mean punch), Last but not least I have started getting back into cooking — because fast food is my biggest enemy.
Overall things are looking up, and I am not giving up anytime soon. Neither should you.
Yes Girl! It will all work out. God is good!! Cheering for you!!
ReplyDeleteThank you!! Yushie
DeleteHang in there my sister. ..it's gonna be alright. ..GLAD YOU ARE PERSEVERING THROUGH IT ALL...
ReplyDeleteThanks girl !!
ReplyDeleteKeep pushing. From someone who has a similar story keeping your self determined, strong, and motivated has been one of my biggest challenges. Continue to surround yourself with like minded people. That is one of my major challenges is feeling like I am doing this on my own. Good look on your studying.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your encouraging words. I wish you the best of luck as well
DeleteDon't give up! It took me five years before I gained my first acceptance, but in the process I was able to grow, find myself, and enjoy life. When the time is right, it WILL come! Best of luck to you :-)
ReplyDeleteAwe D ward, when I read your story and I consider how you strive and got in to medical school despite your obstacles I am inspired. Thank you for your kind words
DeleteFirst off this is a great community of young women here. I am so glad that I scrolled on to your page, now I don't feel so isolated in this journey we are all on.
ReplyDeleteToni J you are inspiring, your vulnerability is powerful I hope to one day find it within myself to be so free/open. Our ability to expand will never.
Continued luck to you
April H .. Thank you so much for your kind words. I find sharing my story liberating. I learned early on that if you are honest, no one can use your past against you.
DeleteIf I find any info regarding dental school academic enhancement programs I will let you know or/and update my post bacc program blog post.
Thank you again for reading... You made my day. Good luck to you!
Hi Toni!
ReplyDeleteI admire your determination and focus towards your goal! Don't every give up, it took me 3 application cycles before I was accepted! You are in my prayers!
Thank you soo much!!
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